Empty Sacrifices

I feel as Brian does:

Because, in my mind, I was being reimbursed in something more valuable: time to do what I wanted to do.

What is beginning to strike me with conviction is that my time alone with God actually has gone slightly down since I quit my job. I’ve been throwing him the scraps of my wealth. When I’ve come home, worked on some art, watched TV or hung out with my friends, I’ve tried to squeeze some time alone with him at the very end of my day. When my body and mind are dull and my energies have been spent selfishly on my own desires.

I was so much better about all this when I was in school, working almost full-time, doing SGA, and all my extracurriculars. :sigh:

2 comments

  1. I’ve found that too. There’s this thing called momentum that very much applies to motivation. Most evenings, once I first sit down to watch TV, I’m done for. So if I want to make the gym, or get dishes done, or cook supper for that matter, it has to happen immediately.

    There is benifit to spontanaity, but there is also real benifit to routine. Making God a vital part of that routine gives Him the foothold necessary to grow and take over the whole of our life. This would fit well with the idea of first believing with our mind and then the heart follows along into true belief. (while not always the case, I find this to be the case very often)

    The other side of that though is getting it to be so routine that you’re just going through the motions. Once that happens, you’ve become focused on the act and not on God… at that point you’ve shut him back out again and you might as well not be doing anything.

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