I think that, when I slip up, one of the reasons I wallow in sin a while is because I just tend to be pretty hard on myself. Given that I grew up in the 1980s, I heard the “To whom much is given, much is expected” bit all the time as a “gifted kid”. Those who grew up in the same era know what I’m talking about—it was a mantra, and it’s a good thing, but … if you’re of the right [or, wrong] mindset, well … yeah.
So when I screw up—no matter if it’s big or small—I seem willing to fall back into whatever I shouldn’t be doing because, well, hey … I’ve already screwed up, right? I clearly suck and am incapabale of the self-discipline that brings me back to that whole joyful obedience stuff.
It’s silly, though. Very, very silly.