I’ve said too much [in publicly admitting what I’m doing for Lent] already, so let me just quote:
16“And when you fast, do not look gloomy like the hypocrites, for they disfigure their faces that their fasting may be seen by others. Truly, I say to you, they have received their reward. 17But when you fast, anoint your head and wash your face, 18that your fasting may not be seen by others but by your Father who is in secret. And your Father who sees in secret will reward you.
Father, if I use Lent in the right way, my writing in this time should not be related to what is given up but what is gained. Any denial is simply done out of obedience and an understanding that we can never make the complete sacrifice Christ gave, but that some willful sacrifice on our part brings us ever closer to truly taking up our cross and following.
Repentance is what we need. [And what I needed earlier today was the strength to pull this verse set out and say, “It’s not for me to say.”]
Yeah, I notice that I do the bulk of my writing in the major parts of the liturgical calendar. I’m working on being better overall, but it’s hard for me, for whatever reason. I think part of my self-examination during Lent is for me to try to unpack why I don’t write this stuff out more often. I think I know some of it, and … well, I’ll explore that soon.